To be honest, I am not a person who is really outgoing and socialised. I am timid, stubborn, refuse to change even I know I should I do. I just can't approach people who I do not feel the frequency synchronised with them.
Excuses. Just try to get close and listen what they say! Of course you can not find their chat topic at the very beginning!
That is what I heard yesterday. It was like a lightning strike right on my head.
It was a nice trip organised by our Chinese seniors in residential college. Well, I may put part of the blame on HORMONE problem, but it also showed how useless I am to control my thoughts. I just cant prevent the harsh words popping up from my mind. Harsh words towards myself. Tears kept running down uncontrolled. Why things always repeated? I can't make myself smiling when everyone is enjoying the photographing session.
I supposed it was a must-undergo-process when I start a new bond with new people. (??) Any how, I do not wish to bring up those silly thoughts, but I wish to express my gratitude here to all I met here. 2nd year seniors, who guided us a lotttt since we entered UM, college friends,Seong Jiunn, Carol, Ann, Rosalyn, Beng Ern, Joey, and many many more. Who make me feel awkward sometimes, till just now, till yesterday, in many events... I am taking one step at a time, creating bonds, making friends, please be patient till the day I can really barge in your room and chat freely.
That is what I heard yesterday. It was like a lightning strike right on my head.
It was a nice trip organised by our Chinese seniors in residential college. Well, I may put part of the blame on HORMONE problem, but it also showed how useless I am to control my thoughts. I just cant prevent the harsh words popping up from my mind. Harsh words towards myself. Tears kept running down uncontrolled. Why things always repeated? I can't make myself smiling when everyone is enjoying the photographing session.
I supposed it was a must-undergo-process when I start a new bond with new people. (??) Any how, I do not wish to bring up those silly thoughts, but I wish to express my gratitude here to all I met here. 2nd year seniors, who guided us a lotttt since we entered UM, college friends,Seong Jiunn, Carol, Ann, Rosalyn, Beng Ern, Joey, and many many more. Who make me feel awkward sometimes, till just now, till yesterday, in many events... I am taking one step at a time, creating bonds, making friends, please be patient till the day I can really barge in your room and chat freely.
时间还很漫长，哈哈，慢慢让自己适应和融入吧。
ReplyDelete要加油噢！Dont be sad when encounter some unpleasant things, stay strong ya ^.^
会的^^不过我总觉得自己还是在那个小圈圈打转~ 诶，你什么时候有google account的……该不会也在写blog？哈哈
Delete那就把自己的小圈圈变大圈圈咯 让多一点人踏进去咯 哈哈哈
Delete应该有一年咯 里面的东西都请完了 呵呵呵
嘛……complicated~请完了？？？哈哈
DeleteOne small step for other, one big step for your own. It is narrow down to valuable experiences. You will treasure it when you think about it later on
ReplyDeleteyeah~I will try my best~and thanks=p
Delete嘿~~~~ 就像我们Form 6 认识的凤如一样talkative就好了， 慢慢来！ 我也是酱的~ slow slow lai~
ReplyDeleteoho~我也是很安静一下的咯~
DeleteHey, ang run xiang!
ReplyDeleteYou remind me when I was about to cry on the third day in PU because I couldn't join people and I felt stress around them.
ReplyDeleteForget about it! I know you can do well. you just need time.
I really envy you =)
my dear..it had been hard for you.hugsssssss
Deletewell dun envy me.everyone have their own prob. really. i envy u sometimes=p
hmm i m who i am, cant change much, so juz the same here.. bt i do appreciate all people i met here...though not close=p
all the best in ur life n i believe in you and your choices made!
thanks~! I only saw your reply now while stalking you>.< hohoho!
Deletethanks anyway.