To be honest, I am not a person who is really outgoing and socialised. I am timid, stubborn, refuse to change even I know I should I do. I just can't approach people who I do not feel the frequency synchronised with them.
Excuses. Just try to get close and listen what they say! Of course you can not find their chat topic at the very beginning!
That is what I heard yesterday. It was like a lightning strike right on my head.
It was a nice trip organised by our Chinese seniors in residential college. Well, I may put part of the blame on HORMONE problem, but it also showed how useless I am to control my thoughts. I just cant prevent the harsh words popping up from my mind. Harsh words towards myself. Tears kept running down uncontrolled. Why things always repeated? I can't make myself smiling when everyone is enjoying the photographing session.
I supposed it was a must-undergo-process when I start a new bond with new people. (??) Any how, I do not wish to bring up those silly thoughts, but I wish to express my gratitude here to all I met here. 2nd year seniors, who guided us a lotttt since we entered UM, college friends,Seong Jiunn, Carol, Ann, Rosalyn, Beng Ern, Joey, and many many more. Who make me feel awkward sometimes, till just now, till yesterday, in many events... I am taking one step at a time, creating bonds, making friends, please be patient till the day I can really barge in your room and chat freely.
That is what I heard yesterday. It was like a lightning strike right on my head.
It was a nice trip organised by our Chinese seniors in residential college. Well, I may put part of the blame on HORMONE problem, but it also showed how useless I am to control my thoughts. I just cant prevent the harsh words popping up from my mind. Harsh words towards myself. Tears kept running down uncontrolled. Why things always repeated? I can't make myself smiling when everyone is enjoying the photographing session.
I supposed it was a must-undergo-process when I start a new bond with new people. (??) Any how, I do not wish to bring up those silly thoughts, but I wish to express my gratitude here to all I met here. 2nd year seniors, who guided us a lotttt since we entered UM, college friends,Seong Jiunn, Carol, Ann, Rosalyn, Beng Ern, Joey, and many many more. Who make me feel awkward sometimes, till just now, till yesterday, in many events... I am taking one step at a time, creating bonds, making friends, please be patient till the day I can really barge in your room and chat freely.