Absurd and disappointment.

It’s not a good day for me.

Today my friends and I was called by a teacher who in charge with library. She accused us for not returning books for more than one month.

WHAT? That’s what I thought in the first place. I remembered the last time I borrowed book from library was a month ago, when we were having our Mathematics trial paper. And I was very sure that I had returned it in time.

We tried to explain to the teacher, and she asked us to find the books from library if we really had returned it.

Fine, I thought, and then we went to library during recess.

The library didn't open.

Good, that was what we expected, as our school library was infamous of being…irresponsible somehow. We often found the library closed, or the worse, open and there was nobody inside, I mean, the librarians.

Finally later, I found it was opened, and I went to find the book that she “declared” I didn't return.

In my “surprise”, there was one book there, which I recognized as the book I borrowed before. However the code number did not match the one which teacher had gave me. I could swear it was the one because I remember there were some notes at the spaces in some pages, and I even checked on what were written. And the returned date stated on the book matched the date I returned. I approached the librarian who was happened to be there and told her the whole incident. She checked for me, and really, my name was in the ‘blacklist’ with the number different from the book, and yet the title of the book was the same! The librarian analyzed that maybe the code was mistaken as the book was the same and asked me to ignore the problem.

Ignore?? I couldn't satisfy with the answer she gave me. What if the teacher call me again and ask me to compensate? I asked over and over again but the librarian asked me to ‘biarkan sahaja’. I gave up, but I jotted down the name of the librarian before I left.

I do not know what is going to happen next, but probably the teacher will not trust me, and accuse me for losing the book. If it really happens, I will not have other way out but to compensate for a book which ‘disappeared and exchanged’ mysteriously.

It is so absurd, right? I don’t know how the things went wrong so dramatically. This form 6 was a year full of unexpected things for me.

Thank you.

Today we held a little party in our class. Sounds normal? But actually there was a long story behind. I was quite touched [or felt thankful, more accurately] when I knew somebody really concern about things happened in the class, although I did not feel it when we were holding a class meeting about that. A bit frustrated at the beginning when I knew they were going to bring food to school (lots of problem if the discipline teacher find out), but by the way, I was grateful.

Recently our class was having a trend to ask our friends to write some words for ourselves, I do not know what it is called in English (纪念册). This “activity” started by one of my friend and me. At first I hesitated to do this, as people always think it is a child’s play, but thanks to her, I did it. And in my surprise, they wrote a lot, and I can tell all the words were written sincerely.

Really happy to see when we all played together, laughed together, and took a lot of picture together. Feel like we are really a family and I were happy to spend this Form6 with you all together.

Thank you. Love you all.

Standing by my own, but never alone.

  I don't know how this discussion began, but it remained in my heart for quite a while.

  My friend and I were talking about, like marriage something. And my friend said she could not understand why people don't get married."Of course one day we will get married, don't we?"

  My answer will be a no, for sure. There is no "things should be" or "things should not be" in the world, same theory as no exact right or wrong answer for a certain thing. People have different reasons to set up a family or staying single throughout their whole lifetime, and we could not justify whether which is the prefect path to choose, and we never know we are going to have which one.

  Haha, I can not predict anything about my future, so both the answer will be possible. Do I hope to have somebody by my side? I think the answer will be yes, but of course I still can live happily without HIM, right? I have my family and friends be there for me.

  Strange topic for today,huh? Silly but true I think.

Starting Line.

Hello there, this is the very first time I am writing a blog using English, so I am feeling quite awkward now, but things will turn better when I write more, perhaps?

The idea of writing a blog in English has been in my mind long time ago, but due to several reasons (excuses, in truth) only now I am doing it, hope my perseverance can last long…Just like the title of my blog, it is a place which I decided to record my life, my growth, and also a chance for me to settle down my mind too.

Ha, I shall make a short introduction of myself here, feel free to call me Amelia, a new English name inspired from a novel "Handle with Care" by Jodi Picoult ( not because I love the little Amelia in the novel, just kind of liking the name). 

You will know more about me, well, perhaps through my post in future(smile).So, I wish to stop at here. Everyone is welcome to post comments here, or correct any grammar mistake if possible.

 Welcome!