Candles, Crowd, Christmas.

The huge Christmas tree in front of Ion Orchard

                You will easily find time is so merciless when Christmas comes. It makes you realize that a year is reaching its end, and another year is ahead.

                Today is 26 December 2012, the “Boxing day”, the day after the Christmas. How was your Christmas? I suppose most of the people have returned to their work, and of course there are people who took a long leave before the New Year coming to go travelling. Well, I am here, in front of my laptop, sharing some of my thoughts and experience during the past Christmas this year. Actually, I went to a primary school just now with my friends in hope to have interview for intern teacher but we was informed that it wasn't a right time so we have to come again by 3.00pm. A sparrow is singing outside in this chill morning, and somewhere the construction site now starts to make noise. I remained calm and neutral though I had been frustrated to get a job.

                Now back to the topic, Christmas. Last Saturday I went to Singapore with my sister and her friends. We were attracted by the Christmas decoration and lights in Orchard Road, which was entitled the most beautiful street decoration for Christmas around the world. The lights were indeed fabulous, and the atmosphere there was great. There were countless Christmas tree along the street but the most remarkable tree is the huge Christmas tree located at the front entrance of Ion Orchard, the shopping mall where you will be in after you reach the Orchard MRT station. The tree was enormous and there was even a little door which leaded you to a magical world inside the tree! It felt like you were standing in a dream with numerous stars surrounded you. Besides, there were two big jingle bells at the top as you can pulled the string attached to make it rings. We could not stay long in the tree as the shining lights made us dizzy. However the biggest flaw was there was too crowded on the street as well as the shopping mall inside. We had to struggle our way in the crowd to walk to our next destination. Free gifts were given to us such as a present package from HELP Family Service Centre, a sample of moisture cream from The Body Shop and etc. I loved the little candle light which was distributed to crowds when the night performance started. Christmas song was singed with numerous lights shined in the dark, everything looked peaceful and nice.    

                Though exhausted, I was contented with what I gained in this trip. New year is coming, and I wish everything will be better in the coming year! 

The right time, the right person.

I wouldn’t know what you will think of when you see this title, but mostly people simply regard this “right person” as our life partners. Do you?

Haha, of course, a right person shouldn’t only be your future partner, it can be your friends and even your teachers too. The affinity between human is so mysterious, strange but precious. Why we met each other? Why at this time? What reasons make us friends? Which qualities do we share in order to pull us closer? What would happen if I did not make the move?

Do you ever think of it? Even a small action can change the world entirely? Or at least, YOUR WORLD?

If you believe in parallel worlds, I believe that you will understand what I am trying to say.

Possibilities. The world is full of possibilities. We are always making choices now and then, which lead us to who we are now and what will us going to be. The same theory applies to people who we met in our life time. I knew I wouldn’t meet some of them if I had not chosen Form 6, and I knew everything would turn out in another way. However please bear in mind that there’s no “perfect path” in the world. Even when we suffer from the choice we made, we cannot deduce that a brighter future is ahead on the road not taken.

We will never know.

That is why the so-called “true love” is precious than anything else for someone. Imaging you meet a girl/boy whom you like in a particular time and coincidently, she/he likes you too. Sometimes people say it is a “miracle”. It is not the end of the story. The couple will have to undergo countless challenges together, and it cannot be called “true love” before their relationship survives. The person who walks by your side till the end of your life is not necessary the one you love most or the one who love you most, but he or she must be the one you meet in the right time.

Friends also the same. I am regarding those friends who you can really rely on when you need them. It takes a second to make a friend, but much long time to keep a friend close to you. Friends we meet in the right time can turn out to be life-long, when we are both best suited to each other. Of course it is not the only key for a successful relationship, understanding, tolerance and chances, yes, chances are needed for you to know your friends better. It can be a minor incident, an unexpected fight, a call or anything else.

This is what I understand recently, inspired by a short story and my friends. 

Time to say goodbye.

Everyone’s going to leave. People say.

As a Chinese saying "天下无不散之筵席", we know when the time has ripe, it's time to be part. However, I wonder how many friends wish we never have to say goodbye, just like me? Silly thoughts, I know. Bonds between people are too fragile; it will be easily broken by time, by words or a simple action. We cannot avoid friends who ever been so close to us drifting away and we cannot deny that we will lose them somehow and somewhere in the time.

Human is powerful with their innovative and inventing ability by making dreams possible in our lives. Nowadays taking photos has become so easy that it could be done in milliseconds of time. Photos do record countless precious moments in our life, but still, we cannot really keep that moment alive for ever. We always lose against time.

The only thing we can do is treasure every second in the present, use it well, express your feeling to people you care, do things which make you happy, and love yourself as well as the world around you.

Here comes the end of my form 6 life, sweet and sour, love or hate, all the bygones are bygones. No doubt that it had been a wonderful experience to us and to me. Every stage of life is different, and yet to be unique for every single person. I am grateful to all the people I met and the things I encountered; no matter they brought me laughter or tears. Thank you my friends for your company, and sorry to all those I had hurt.

Wish you a bright future, my friends.

                                                                                             Love,

                                                                                             Amelia

Absurd and disappointment.

It’s not a good day for me.

Today my friends and I was called by a teacher who in charge with library. She accused us for not returning books for more than one month.

WHAT? That’s what I thought in the first place. I remembered the last time I borrowed book from library was a month ago, when we were having our Mathematics trial paper. And I was very sure that I had returned it in time.

We tried to explain to the teacher, and she asked us to find the books from library if we really had returned it.

Fine, I thought, and then we went to library during recess.

The library didn't open.

Good, that was what we expected, as our school library was infamous of being…irresponsible somehow. We often found the library closed, or the worse, open and there was nobody inside, I mean, the librarians.

Finally later, I found it was opened, and I went to find the book that she “declared” I didn't return.

In my “surprise”, there was one book there, which I recognized as the book I borrowed before. However the code number did not match the one which teacher had gave me. I could swear it was the one because I remember there were some notes at the spaces in some pages, and I even checked on what were written. And the returned date stated on the book matched the date I returned. I approached the librarian who was happened to be there and told her the whole incident. She checked for me, and really, my name was in the ‘blacklist’ with the number different from the book, and yet the title of the book was the same! The librarian analyzed that maybe the code was mistaken as the book was the same and asked me to ignore the problem.

Ignore?? I couldn't satisfy with the answer she gave me. What if the teacher call me again and ask me to compensate? I asked over and over again but the librarian asked me to ‘biarkan sahaja’. I gave up, but I jotted down the name of the librarian before I left.

I do not know what is going to happen next, but probably the teacher will not trust me, and accuse me for losing the book. If it really happens, I will not have other way out but to compensate for a book which ‘disappeared and exchanged’ mysteriously.

It is so absurd, right? I don’t know how the things went wrong so dramatically. This form 6 was a year full of unexpected things for me.

Thank you.

Today we held a little party in our class. Sounds normal? But actually there was a long story behind. I was quite touched [or felt thankful, more accurately] when I knew somebody really concern about things happened in the class, although I did not feel it when we were holding a class meeting about that. A bit frustrated at the beginning when I knew they were going to bring food to school (lots of problem if the discipline teacher find out), but by the way, I was grateful.

Recently our class was having a trend to ask our friends to write some words for ourselves, I do not know what it is called in English (纪念册). This “activity” started by one of my friend and me. At first I hesitated to do this, as people always think it is a child’s play, but thanks to her, I did it. And in my surprise, they wrote a lot, and I can tell all the words were written sincerely.

Really happy to see when we all played together, laughed together, and took a lot of picture together. Feel like we are really a family and I were happy to spend this Form6 with you all together.

Thank you. Love you all.

Standing by my own, but never alone.

  I don't know how this discussion began, but it remained in my heart for quite a while.

  My friend and I were talking about, like marriage something. And my friend said she could not understand why people don't get married."Of course one day we will get married, don't we?"

  My answer will be a no, for sure. There is no "things should be" or "things should not be" in the world, same theory as no exact right or wrong answer for a certain thing. People have different reasons to set up a family or staying single throughout their whole lifetime, and we could not justify whether which is the prefect path to choose, and we never know we are going to have which one.

  Haha, I can not predict anything about my future, so both the answer will be possible. Do I hope to have somebody by my side? I think the answer will be yes, but of course I still can live happily without HIM, right? I have my family and friends be there for me.

  Strange topic for today,huh? Silly but true I think.

Starting Line.

Hello there, this is the very first time I am writing a blog using English, so I am feeling quite awkward now, but things will turn better when I write more, perhaps?

The idea of writing a blog in English has been in my mind long time ago, but due to several reasons (excuses, in truth) only now I am doing it, hope my perseverance can last long…Just like the title of my blog, it is a place which I decided to record my life, my growth, and also a chance for me to settle down my mind too.

Ha, I shall make a short introduction of myself here, feel free to call me Amelia, a new English name inspired from a novel "Handle with Care" by Jodi Picoult ( not because I love the little Amelia in the novel, just kind of liking the name). 

You will know more about me, well, perhaps through my post in future(smile).So, I wish to stop at here. Everyone is welcome to post comments here, or correct any grammar mistake if possible.

 Welcome!